... Une Eternit Alexander Urp At last, after many a decade of long and painful work, the hour of elation had arrived. His novel was very nearly complete. Five hundred pages lay before him, each page composed of paragraphs, each paragraph of sentences, each sentence of words, each word of thoughts, and each thought of infinite contemplations. In terms of space and time as society knew them, it had taken Duchamp twenty-five years to reach this point. Twenty-five years of explaining that his plot was difficult to pin down in one sentence. Twenty-five years of enduring the stinging insinuations that there was no book, that he had simply fabricated tales of writing such a book. Twenty-five years of being told by professors that his aims were the fancy of an overeager student, and then, when he himself joined their ranks, of being told by his peers that he was not talented enough to write what they termed a good book. Twenty-five years! Perhaps to them it had been only twenty-five years; to Duchamp it had been an eternity. Every waking momentand some sleepingof every day he had spent consumed in his myriad contemplations and imaginations. He could not even hope to remember the infinite glimpses and ideas that had contributed to his masterpiece. Perhaps it would not be a literary icon or the great French novel, but he had to admit that there was some greatness in it. That greatness had been written into it during that eternity spanning twenty-five yearsor perhaps it was twenty-five years spanning an eternity. Duchamp leaned forward and dipped his quill pen into the black ink of his well. He had written two words of the final line of his novel when, to his surprise, his arm stopped writing. He knew better than to continue with the task, for some part of his subconscious had urged him not to finish it. He leaned back in the plain wooden chair and searched his subconscious thoughts. He came upon it rather quickly. Fresh air. He had cooped himself up in this circular study in his cottage for far too long, had made himself a prisoner of his determination and of his thoughts. He could not finish the book before taking a breath of fresh air. There were no windows in his study, so he would have to return by the dark hallway and leave his little cottage if he were to breathe calmly and freely again. Perhaps he might even find a better way to write the final sentence, as if it mattered what he said there. He did not bring the solitary lantern with him, so he returned through his hallway 17 Une Eternit | Alexander Urp in complete darkness; he had gone to and fro in complete darkness for many years now. He did not know why. Perhaps it was because someone he met at a caf in Paris once had said that thoughts surfaced better in total darkness. He could not remember the someone at the cafhe might have been beardedbut then it hardly mattered now, now that he had finished his lifes work. Finished his lifes work. The idea was somewhat disappointing, anticlimactic. What was he to do now that he had finished? He could not write anything elsethis was the best work he had written in his lifetime, and he could not imagine surpassing it. He might go into teaching, but then, what could he possibly teach students that they could not learn simply by reading his novel? Besides, he found writing much more entertaining than teaching; oh, he had envisioned being a professor in his dayhe had spent some years trying to be onebut now that seemed a different life, one that he ought not to enter into. He was a writer now, as much a writer as Dumas or Verne, perhaps even a better one. They had written of such petty subjects as adventure and chivalry his novel, with its many themes, was much more interesting. In a way, he decided, he was even a better writer than his favorite author, Chekhov. The world would see that, soon enough, when they read his published work, the work it had taken him forever to write. He could compare himself to Chekhov, yes, for his book was quite impressive, literarily speaking. There were metaphors in it, and similes and personification and all those little gratuitous details and tendencies that made great authors great. He had told parables in the book, crafted chapters with such eloquence that he might have published them as short stories. Yet that, of course, would never do. Alone, they were short stories comparable to Chekhov; as part of his book, they were works of genius and far surpassed anything the Russian author could have imagined, let alone written down with such illustriousness as he. He opened the door of his little French cottage and stepped outside. It was a beautiful day, marvelous. He should spend the whole day outside in this bright sunlight, with this blue sky and cobblestone pavement and green grass and rainbow-colored flowers. They had said it should be windy, but it wasnt; in fact, the breeze was more than welcome. The temperature was just right, he thought. Nothing could possibly go wrong on this fine day. Indeed, nothing did go wrong. Duchamp spent the whole day walking the little streets of his tiny village, lying under trees in the park and sitting peacefully on benches. He did not return to his cottage, and in fact, the mossy walls of the abode, the 18 Une Eternit | Alexander Urp dark hallway, the circular room, his book on the desknot one of them so much as crossed his mind. Here he was, spending the whole day in blissfulblissful what? He wasnt doing anything, absolutely nothing. Perhaps he should call it nothingness. Yes, nothingness. He was spending the day in blissful nothingness, while his fellow Frenchmen waddled about their daily business like mallard ducks crossing the road down by the river. He had spent twenty-five years, an eternity, with nothing but the book on his mind, and now he found he was able to forget it completely. It was an exhilarating feeling, and that night he went to bed in his beautiful cottagehe found it beautiful nowand slept a sound and dreamless sleep. The next morning, he returned to his study, although he wasnt sure why he was doing itperhaps out of habitby passing through the dark hallway. He opened the door to the circular room, which he noticed for the first time was strangely curved, sat down at the desk, and dipped the quill pen into the black ink. Again, however, his own arm stopped him before he could finish that final line. Why should he finish it now? There was no rush, after all. Finishing the book would seem so dull, so dreary. He didnt want to be finished with it, didnt want to be done with the work of twenty-five years, an eternity. Perhaps he could wait just another day, and then finish it tomorrow. He could spend today as he had spent yesterday, lounging about in the sunshine and the breeze, lying on the soft grass instead of sitting on this hard chair. Yes, yes, he would do that. He would enjoy himself. Indeed, he did enjoy himself, not just that day but many days afterwards until he lost count. He would walk into his study every morning and decide not to finish the book that day; eventually, he stopped entering his study altogether and simply waltzed around his village. He visited the baker and chatted about how he managed to make his bread so wonderfully warm and soft on the inside, yet crispy on the outside. He talked with the gossipy old women who lived in cottages like his, on the same road, and asked them how they went about tending their gardens. He paid a visit to the church house and had lunch with the vicar because the bishop was away; they talked about God the entire afternoon, and when the vicar asked if he had finished his book, he said he was almost done with it. On the way home, he stopped and had words with some fine, respectable ladies, and they complimented the near-completion of his little book. He was not a slave to his subconscious, and over time he realized why he had taken to leaving that final line unfinished and pondering on it instead of writing it. He 19 Une Eternit | Alexander Urp simply couldnt finish the book, not now, in any case. He had spent his whole life writing it, and if he stopped now, he would experience that terrible sinking sensation that he always used to feel when he finished writing stories. No, he was much happier this way, always with the knowledge that he could finish his book at any time. In fact, he reasoned with himself, he could start to improve the book without finishing it. He began to cut his days in half, the morning spent reading over and revising his manuscript in his parlor, where there were windows, instead of in that dreary study. In the afternoon, he would enjoy himself, visiting his friends and acquaintances in the quaint little town. He even fancied that he might search for a wife, since all the gossipy old women claimed it was high time he found one. He very much enjoyed revising his unfinished book because it allowed him to feel as if he were re-writing it instead of changing something he had finished writing. Removing lines was no longer a pain for him. After all, he wasnt destroying his sentences; it was more as if he had never written them in the first place. Had the book been finished, he felt sure, it would have been much more difficult to improve. Some afternoons, he gardened and found that he enjoyed it very much. The rainbow-colored flowers responded well to his touch, and he rather fancied that he had a bit of a green thumb. He took better care of the moss and vines that curled around his stone cottage, and, before a year had passed, his garden was the envy of the town. Whenever he finished working in his garden, he felt so elated that he visited the chapel and thanked his late father profusely for his inheritance, without which he could not have enjoyed so fruitful and happy a life. His gratitude, over time, extended to the entire town, and he began to fund book clubs and social gatherings and charitable events. Through all this, he felt that his book improved exponentially. His experiences, these new feelings of gratitude and peace, had helped him elevate his novel to such heights that it now seemed to him the greatest work ever written. Certainly, Dumas and Verne, even Chekhov, no longer compared, but now he imagined that not one of the worlds greatest authors could ever surpass him. He no longer questioned whether his might be the great French novelhe knew with a kind of visionary assurance that it would be. He talked with some professors and literary critics in the town about what they believed would constitute the finest novel ever written, and their answers only proved decisively that his was that novel. His life passed in this way for five years, years that passed so quickly, years in which he truly considered himself a writer in all 20 Une Eternit | Alexander Urp connotations of the word. One fine spring day at the end of these five years, he was walking along the main street and whistling to himself. He meandered and stared up into the branches of every tree he passed, and sometimes he stopped in the middle of the sidewalk simply to take in the warm rays of the sweet, bright sun. What a change this was from that dark corridor which led to his study! The corridor. The circular room. The desk. The book. The quill pen. The black ink. He had not thought of these things in years; he had revised and re-revised his book for one-fifth the time it took him to write it, although this was not particularly egregious. Only recently had he begun to think of them again, but he had deliberately ignored those thoughts until today. There was, he knew, a reason he had thought of these things lately. The revisions were finished, and there was nothing more to be gained by waiting. His subconsciousno, his talks with the vicar had convinced him it was his soulwas now telling him to finish that book. He knew at once what the final line should be like, and then tomorrow he would ship the book off to the publisher and see what he said. Somehow, the idea of finishing the book was no longer anticlimactic, nor was it depressing. He knew, somehow, that it was time, that it had been time for a little while. He had waited too long, but now he would listen to his soul and finish the book. Then all his good friendshe did not care what the critics saidwould see how fine a writer he was. He began to skip joyfully on his way home, a home that now seemed so far away, as if it might take him an eternity to get there. Duchamps novel was published a year later and achieved great renown in France. Critics and regular folk alike agreed that a novel like it had not been seen in many years. The words were so precise as to be perfect, the tone so smooth as to be eloquent. Similes, metaphors, and other figurative language abounded so that one might have considered it poetry instead of prosesome critics called it a work of prosetry, so melodic was its rhyme and meter, all within prose form. The novel sold well into the hundreds of thousands, which in that day and age was unheard-of. It was translated from French into English, and from there it traveled to America and to all corners of the British Empire. In India, it was read in Hindi by Brahmin priests; when it reached China, it became mandatory reading for the mandarins. It appealed to all ethnicities, philosophies, and religions; everyone from the Christian to the Muslim to the Buddhist to the Confucian saw value in its fine plot and skillful composition. Around the world, 21 Une Eternit | Alexander Urp it was generally considered a fine novel. Admittedly, the myriad of themes meant that critics rarely concurred on how to interpret it. There was, however, one point on which they all agreed. The novel suffered in only one aspect, which, had it been remedied, would have elevated the masterpiece to such heights that it would indeed have been not only the great French novel, but the greatest world novel of all time. As it were, it could not compare, literarily speaking, to the work of Verne, Dumas, or, as was often cited, Chekhov. All critics expressed their wish that the author had not been hit and killed in a carriage accident before being able to complete the book, which lacked the sense of resolution that the unfinished line might have added. 22 ...